You broke your promise.

I should've known it was too good to be true.

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Do you know how much more secure I feel with them? Do you know how much pain you caused? I tell myself it's okay, it's alright, and that it would be fine, that I was merely being jealous. But all that didn't help. Who was I kidding? Who did I think I was lying to? I tell myself it's perfectly okay, and that it was just my own thinking that was going wrong. But I can't. I can't. I can feel it, I can. And I don't like what it is. It's pain. It's hurt. It's sadness. It's all that I wished never to have, but all of which never came true. I found them, yet seem so far away from them. And all I see, is emptiness. Nothing at all. I know I'm lost. I try to find a way out, but it all seems like a maze, a never-ending maze which I can never find my way out of. It's like searching in the darkness with no source of light, no source of hope. It's like walking without support, without strength. It's emptiness. I know I feel better with them, I know I feel more at home with them, I know they care more. But yet I can't follow what I feel. I wonder if it's all just destined, destined to be my fate.